Bulimia help!!!!??
Question: Hi, my name is Annie, i have been bulimic on and off for the past 4 years...but a month has not gone by without a bing/purge. for the past year i have been binge/purging at least 4 times a week. some days i only binge/purge once, others i do it several times. this has taken over my life completly and i feel i have NO control over myself. i hate doing this to myself and i cannot tell a soul as i am so embarrassed and ashamed. i have had depression for the past 3 years and have also attemped suicide. i still have suicidal thoughts and i feel so trapped and alone. i do not want to seek help as i don't want to face it and i know i will be hospitalized...i am so incredibly embarrassed about this disgusting habit i have, and it makes me feel sick just thinking about the amount of food i eat only to throw it up straight after. but i am also scared to gain weight. i am in a vicious cycle, the more upset i get about what im doing, the more i do it, it is taking over,pls help. i cant take this
Answers: Hi annie,i've been where you are right now,mine went on for years,i was'nt only bulimic but i used to starve myself drastically,one night i actually had a stroke/seizure,i guess there i pushed myself too far ,there's alot of mental and physical damage you're doing to yourself,but you don't need someone preaching to you right now,even if you are to eat fruit you still feel the need for your body to reject it,i used to get a yucky feeling with the thought of food in my body,you could try drinking milk drinks as milk puts a lining on your stomach,no-one can tell/make you stop,you can only do that on your own free will,but some support would most certainly help you i think.
with the link i have provided,scroll down,it may help to read that other's are going through what you are going through.
I WANT TO BE YOUR A FRIENDSHIP
Hey if you dont want to over eat/binge just do the 3 fruit a day diet thats what I do and the weight has been dropping off!
Like Yesterday I had...
Breakfast : Banana
Lunch: Apple
Dinner: Orange
And All I Drank that day was lots and lots of water.
That whole day was round about 250 calories ...
I didnt even feel hungry!!
Its MUCH MUCH better thsn being bulimic x
Hope You Feel Better*
there is nothing to be ashamed about, but i can understand that you may feel this way. I have battled an ED for several years so I can relate. first of all, you need to tell someone you trust about what you are going through - whether it be a parent, friend, dr, or counsellor. there are so many medical complication of bulimia - you rot your esophagus, damages your teeth, it is very bad for your heart, etc.
Hi Annie, I don't know how old you are but I can definitely relate. I spent 10+ years being bulemic. When I first started I was 18 and needed to drop a little weight. I had read about bulimia in a magazine and thought I could do this for a little while just until the weight comes off. Dropped from 140 to 110 in 2 months, unfortuntely my body type is not made to be that skinny so I really was looking bad but didn't know it. The problem came when I tried to stop the binge/purge (B/P) cycles. This became a head problem not just an eating problem. The shame I started to feel when I put any food in my mouth was overwhelming. I felt guilty and started thinking that for each bite of food I ate the weight would come rushing back. I began to feel out of control and try as I might my heart wouuld start to race and I couldn't relax knowing there was food in my stomach. I had started out just doing it occasionally but was soon B/P 4-5 times a day. I did realize that I had triggers and after awhile I tried to focus on what the triggers were and tried to stay clear of them. I had to confide finally in my boyfriend and I was so afraid he would be disgusted but instead he was supportive. He became my lifeline, even when he was at work. It took a long time and probably wouldn't have taken so long for me to stop if I had gotten professional help but like you I did not want to be hospitalized and I didn't want anyone to know. I didn't stop cold turkey but I definitely slowed down, began avoiding the triggers and went from doing this 4-5 times a day to months in between. I had to seek help for the reasons why I started this in the first place...the esteem issues, the relationship issues, my past abuse ect. I did that with the help of God and a lot of soul searching. The final thing that got me to really stop was my pregnancy. Up until that point I was still doing it a few times a year, I was now 28. When I realized that I had to put my son first it became a strong motivator and I finally had to discuss the problem with my doctor. He was supportive. My son is now 14 and I can probably count on 2 hands how many times I have B/P in these past 14 years. I guess I will never be completely over being a bulemic but a recovering bulemic. I take it a day at a time because I know that I still occasionally think it won't be so bad but then I remember those early years when I couldn't stop. 4-5 times a day and thoughts of suicide were ready to overwhelm me. This disease was totally controlling me at that point and I don't want to go back to being a slave to bulemia. Find a person you can confide in, get a lifeline if you feel you can't seek help from a MD/Hosp. Get a good book about the disease and learn what triggers you. I learned to stay away from certain situations and certain foods. I wish you luck because bulemia isn's a diet program it is a disease.
Answers: Hi annie,i've been where you are right now,mine went on for years,i was'nt only bulimic but i used to starve myself drastically,one night i actually had a stroke/seizure,i guess there i pushed myself too far ,there's alot of mental and physical damage you're doing to yourself,but you don't need someone preaching to you right now,even if you are to eat fruit you still feel the need for your body to reject it,i used to get a yucky feeling with the thought of food in my body,you could try drinking milk drinks as milk puts a lining on your stomach,no-one can tell/make you stop,you can only do that on your own free will,but some support would most certainly help you i think.
with the link i have provided,scroll down,it may help to read that other's are going through what you are going through.
I WANT TO BE YOUR A FRIENDSHIP
Hey if you dont want to over eat/binge just do the 3 fruit a day diet thats what I do and the weight has been dropping off!
Like Yesterday I had...
Breakfast : Banana
Lunch: Apple
Dinner: Orange
And All I Drank that day was lots and lots of water.
That whole day was round about 250 calories ...
I didnt even feel hungry!!
Its MUCH MUCH better thsn being bulimic x
Hope You Feel Better*
there is nothing to be ashamed about, but i can understand that you may feel this way. I have battled an ED for several years so I can relate. first of all, you need to tell someone you trust about what you are going through - whether it be a parent, friend, dr, or counsellor. there are so many medical complication of bulimia - you rot your esophagus, damages your teeth, it is very bad for your heart, etc.
Hi Annie, I don't know how old you are but I can definitely relate. I spent 10+ years being bulemic. When I first started I was 18 and needed to drop a little weight. I had read about bulimia in a magazine and thought I could do this for a little while just until the weight comes off. Dropped from 140 to 110 in 2 months, unfortuntely my body type is not made to be that skinny so I really was looking bad but didn't know it. The problem came when I tried to stop the binge/purge (B/P) cycles. This became a head problem not just an eating problem. The shame I started to feel when I put any food in my mouth was overwhelming. I felt guilty and started thinking that for each bite of food I ate the weight would come rushing back. I began to feel out of control and try as I might my heart wouuld start to race and I couldn't relax knowing there was food in my stomach. I had started out just doing it occasionally but was soon B/P 4-5 times a day. I did realize that I had triggers and after awhile I tried to focus on what the triggers were and tried to stay clear of them. I had to confide finally in my boyfriend and I was so afraid he would be disgusted but instead he was supportive. He became my lifeline, even when he was at work. It took a long time and probably wouldn't have taken so long for me to stop if I had gotten professional help but like you I did not want to be hospitalized and I didn't want anyone to know. I didn't stop cold turkey but I definitely slowed down, began avoiding the triggers and went from doing this 4-5 times a day to months in between. I had to seek help for the reasons why I started this in the first place...the esteem issues, the relationship issues, my past abuse ect. I did that with the help of God and a lot of soul searching. The final thing that got me to really stop was my pregnancy. Up until that point I was still doing it a few times a year, I was now 28. When I realized that I had to put my son first it became a strong motivator and I finally had to discuss the problem with my doctor. He was supportive. My son is now 14 and I can probably count on 2 hands how many times I have B/P in these past 14 years. I guess I will never be completely over being a bulemic but a recovering bulemic. I take it a day at a time because I know that I still occasionally think it won't be so bad but then I remember those early years when I couldn't stop. 4-5 times a day and thoughts of suicide were ready to overwhelm me. This disease was totally controlling me at that point and I don't want to go back to being a slave to bulemia. Find a person you can confide in, get a lifeline if you feel you can't seek help from a MD/Hosp. Get a good book about the disease and learn what triggers you. I learned to stay away from certain situations and certain foods. I wish you luck because bulemia isn's a diet program it is a disease.
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